This evening, a friend and I had a dinner date. We made food, had a few drinks and started up Netflix. After countless titles flashed before our eyes, we saw it and decided immediately: Cruel Intentions.
Once my favorite movie, Cruel Intentions came out when both my friend and I were growing up. I had the biggest crush on Sebastian Valmont (Ryan Phillippe‘s character), the bad boy gone soft. But at some point it dawned on both my friend and I that he hadn’t aged as we had. I mean, he just looked so young! But that’s the thing about film, right? It captures you at a certain age forever.
So, the question becomes when do you, as a viewer, start to feel a little creepy for still being attracted to what you were initially attracted to years ago? i.e., my 13-year-old self thought that Sebastian was one of the most attractive, or as 13 y.o. me would say, “HOTT, HOTT, HOTTEST!” characters around. But as an adult watching this same movie, I remember the attraction, and even think he’s cute, but feel very strange admitting that this previous crush is still exists a bit.
I just wonder, is it creepy? Is it that strange? Or is it completely normal?





